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I caused you hurt....
Wednesday, September 26, 2007 at 10:16 AM

I am currently on a temporary separation with Christie(my girlfriend).

She said she needed some breathing space after the series of stupid arguments we had last month(mostly started by me). Yes, very stupid of me. These arguments on top of her tests exhausted her which led to her decision to this.

In the beginning, i felt so depressed, and asked her out on a Saturday. I did whatever i thought could salvage the situation but perhaps it had backfired on me. Instead of a week's break as she had asked for, I think it has extended indefinitely. shit.

I've been having a hard time this week trying to accept it. At first, I just wanted to disappear and be not contactable. However, I couldn't bear to leave her alone like that despite the separation. I've been psyching myself up recently to have the courage to face the music. It's difficult but I do not think it is wise to remain like this forever, I still have my Uni to complete.

Yet, inside me, i am still hopeful - even though our relationship has degenerated to mere friends.

I caused her hurt, and I probably seem a scary boyfriend to her.

I've talked to my friends and they have been very supportive. I know I used to neglect you guys when I was still together with my girl. I am so sorry, but heh, I did not want to lose her see. But in the end, :/

Anyways, I have to do some studying now, been slacking for too long. Half the term-break is already over. I've got upcoming quizzes next week and a physics test the following week's Saturday.

Bye~
P.S I've also changed the layout of this blogsite coz she said it was too angsty.

I'll play for you.