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V I R G O: The Whore Dominant in relationships. Sexy. Someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness. Great kisser. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost. S C O R P I O: The Freak in bed Can be mean sometimes, and will probably knock your ass out, if crossed the wrong way!! EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever.... Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost. L I B R A: The sex addict Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you want to fuck with... u might end up crying... the most irresistible. Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. Loves sports. Gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost. A R I E S: The Sexiest Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships. =) Addictive. Loud. Best in bed. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost. A Q U A R I U S: Does it in the water Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic and funny. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock the shit out of u. The best and biggest freak in bed! Considered to be a "G". 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost. G E M I N I: Ultra Sexy Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the fuck out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING, Horny. Freak in Bed. Loves to make out. (GREAT kisser). Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost. L E O: wild in bed Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at a lot. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost. C A N C E R: Most Amazing Kisser Very high sex appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Very popular. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost. P I S C E S: The Piece of ass Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high SEX appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost. C A P R I C O R N: The passionate Lover Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible, awesome kisser. Gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost. T A U R U S: The Lover Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ...u no... Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to fuck with. Are the sexiest people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost. S A G I T T A R I U S: The Sexy one Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you want to mess with you might end up crying.
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Alright, I studied for my test.yet..i couldn't do the 2 math problems. fuck. Sigh on top of that, I only got 60marks for my Econs test. I expected slightly more.. I was so confident..sigh.. I hope I will not have to carry over any modules...sigh..gotta buck up... zzz..
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Decided to rummage through my collection of CDs i bought from Primary to Secondary school days. I found Backstreet Boys's self titled debut album. Woohoo. I got so excited and immediately inserted it into my CD-rom and played it. Wow man, just wow. They still sound so good even after all these years. It also brought back memories. Good ones. Many good memories. Days when Boybands were the IN thing. J or K fashion was unknown. Days when people did not know the band SPEED. Days when having a pager was deemed cool and owning a handphone = rich. Here's a list of some of the songs that I used to and still do like. Backstreetboys - All I have to give Backstreetboys - As long as you love me Backstreetboys - Larger than Life 911 - Body shaking NSYNC - God must have a spent a little more time on you NSYNC - Bye bye bye and here's BSB's latest single. Lyrics are below: I close the door Like so many times, so many times before Felt like scene on the cutting room floor When I let you walk away tonight without a word I try to sleep, yea But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me A thousand more regrets unravelling oh If you were here right now I swear I'd tell you this Chorous Baby I don't wanna waste another day Keeping it inside is killing me Coz all I ever want it comes right down to you (to you) I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you everytime you leave I'm inconsolable I climb the walls, yea I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no I memorized the number So why can't I make the call Maybe coz I know you'll always be with me In the possibilities oh oh Chorous Baby I don't wanna waste another day (another day) Keeping it inside is killing me Coz all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you) I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you everytime you leave I'm inconsolable oh oh oh no no I don't wanna be like this I just wanna let you know That everything that I'm holding Is everything I can't let go oh oh no can't let go Yea Chorous Coz baby I don't wanna waste another day Keeping it inside is killing me Coz all I ever want it comes right down to you (to youx3) I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you everytime you leave I'm inconsolable oh no Don't you know it baby I don't wanna waste another day I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you everytime you leave I'm inconsolable yea yeah yeah oh oh oh I'm inconsolable Whoah yeah oh oh oh I'm inconsolable oh oh yea yea
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January 01 - 09 ~ Ass January 10 - 24 ~ Slug January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog February 15 - 21 ~ Skunk February 22 - 28 ~ Snake March 01 - 12 ~ Ape March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach March 16 - 23 ~ Slug March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite April 01 - 03 ~ Ass April 04 - 14 ~ Snake April 15 - 26 ~ Slug April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk May 01 - 13 ~ Slug May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach June 01 - 03 ~ Slug June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk June 15 - 20 ~ Ass June 21 - 24 ~ Ape June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite July 01 - 09 ~ Slug July 10 - 15 ~ Ass July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite August 01 - 15 ~ Ape August 16 - 25 ~ Slug August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite September 28 - 30 ~ Ass October 01 - 15 ~ Ape October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk October 28 - 31 ~ Snake November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite December 01 - 16 ~ Ass December 17 - 25 ~ Ape December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog If you are an Ass: A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified. If you are a Slug: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then! If you are a Cockroach: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful..... If you are a Parasite: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends. If you are a Skunk: You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what the best trait of you guys remains. If you are a Bullfrog: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware; it is easy for you to fall in love.... If you are a Snake: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you. If you are an Ape: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quickly as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique..You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!
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I woke up today, perspiring profusely, shaken and in tears. What a way to start a Sunday. I could remember what I dreamed of so clearly. I was walking down the road with her happily. Talking shit and laughing away. From behind us, came a car. It went on and stopped just beside us and horned. The passenger door opened. She let go of my hand and looked at me dead in the eye. 'I appreciate all that you have done for me mike but I don't love you.' She entered the car and it zoomed into the horizon. That was when I woke up. I could feel the painful sting in my heavy heart. I sat up straight. Dazed, blurred,disorientated. I'm drinking lots of Earl Grey tea now. Hopefully it'll calm me down and continue my revision.
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Alrighty. I had dinner with my camp buddies last night. Rockey,Dave and my understudy...Lee - I call him by his surname, something quite common in the army. Unfortunately, Dave couldn't stay any longer due to church commitments. He could have if that old hag didn't stall time. Lee stayed for awhile and left. There were only Rockey and I left at subway. We were talking cock la basically. Some serious issues were also discussed. Life as a clerk in the office where I worked in wouldn't have been so tolerable if not for 3 of my other camp buddies. Namely, Rockey,Alex and Teo. 4 of us were, I dare to say, Elite of the Elites in the unit. Practically nobody dared to lay a finger on us, except for our C.O of course. MT Line hated us. All because of our bitch of a boss. She was tyrant. Also because of her, 4 of us have - I guess - developed a higher threshold for stupidity,idiocy and incompetence. 4 of us would share all our problems in the office and also gossip about others of course. This really reduced our stress levels in office. Mental stress there was sky high. But because we would talk crap and laugh it out, we survived. However, the office now - from what i heard - is less lively. I don't really know what happened over the period of time, but, yeah. I tried to explain to my understudy that, if you keep things to yourself in the office and also don't bother to learn about the jobs of others, you'll be in really deep shit. Being there is always about protecting yourself. Equiping yourself with useless knowledge. You use all these knowledge to defend yourself in case some idiot tries to frame you. Like what one of our SSG(Staff sergeant) once said 'they want to fight grammar, we also fight grammar lor'. You get the point. I've had my fair share of emails being shot at me. As much as I want to enter 'fuck you son of a bitch, read the instructions before fucking me stupid asshole of a 'insert rank here''. I didn't. I had to bow my head yet be subtle enough for him to feel his stupidity. Of course, being inside for 1year 8mths, my english did worsen. My understudy has reached Chief Clerk english. Ultimate. 'Need your assists, please' Ah, well. Back to maths.
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Well.. i'm not really sure myself. I'm still alive and kicking. I've got three tests next week. Maths on Monday, Chemistry on Tuesday and computing on Thursday. Due to these tests, i'm unable to fly back. Sigh. My first exam will begin on 14 Nov. I've got only a few weeks left before judgment day and I have been trying to study really hard now. It is better late than never I suppose. I hope that I can pass this semester and do better for the next one. I just want to scream and rant so much but I figured, it won't really do much. I'll end my post here, my mind is blank and I'm really exhausted. I can barely keep my eyes open. If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes. St. Clement of Alexandra
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This is all just a nightmare..it will be over..soon... good night.
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She calls me baby then she won't call me Says she adores me and then ignores me Jenny what's the problem She keeps her distance and sits on fences Puts up resistance and builds defenses Jenny what's the problem? You leave me hanging on the line Every time you change your mind First You say you won't then you say you will You keep me hanging on and we're not moving on We're standing still Jenny You got me on my knees. Jenny it's killing me. She needs her own space She's playing mind games. Ends up at my place saying that she's changed Jenny what's the problem I'm trying to read between the lines You got me going out of my mind First you say you won't then you say you will You keep me hanging on and we're not moving on. We're standing still Jenny You got me on my knees Jenny it's killing me It's killing me It's killing me Jenny First you say you won't then you say you will You keep me hanging on and we're not moving on We're standing still Jenny You got me on my knees Jenny First you say you won't then you say you will You keep me hanging on and we're not moving on We're standing still Jenny You got me on my knees Jenny It's killing me It's killing me Jenny Click Five - Jenny Singing this all day...changed the name..
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Oh what the hell, I'll be left home alone again for 2 weeks. Great. I wanted to go back so badly but my fukin tests just had to be next week. It just had to. I hate this. zzz.
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I am really running out of time to do my revisions for my subject. As much as I want to, I can't seem to make myself revise. My chest feels like there are needles poking it and heavy. I feel gloomy all the time. Even one of my classmates pointed out that my posture when I woke seem so lethargic. This is terrible.. Exam...Exam...exam..cmon...show me the bling blings..
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Would you call me crazy And just plain silly, If I told you I loved you, And that you were the only one for me. Would you laugh in my face And turn to walk away, If I told you that you are my angel From the sky of blue above. Would you believe me And never doubt me, If I told you I didn't know What I'd do without you. Would you roll your eyes of brown And push me away, If I told you no one makes me laugh Quite like you do. Would you fight for me And never give up, If I told you I wanted you But the world just didn't agree. Would you hold me tight, And never think of letting go, If I told you that you'd captured my heart And was wondering if you'd keep it always. ~ Anonymous
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Went for my usual jog in the late afternoon. It was relaxing, ironic eh. I take a different route everytime I jog so that it doesn't get boring. At the same time, I try to increase my pace and cover more distance. Other times, I'll cover a shorter distance to relax my body. It's really enjoyable to jog around your neighbourhood. Noticing things that you will never see if you took the bus. I was thinking of bringing along a camera while joggin and just take random shots as I pass by. But the thought of carrying that extra weight while joggin would be just to troublesome. So I passed. heh. Despite all that joggin and other workouts i've been doing, my lovehandles are still there. :( damn. After my Jog, I went to the fitness corner near my place and cooled down. I took a sit after that and just listened to my mp3 player. Looking around, seeing what other people do. It was just intriguing what others do. You could see kids playing soccer, people sitting on a bench just chilling, old men talking to each other and myself, minding my own business, sitting on the bench after the cool down. It was really therapeutic and I thought I managed to clear my mind of all thoughts. Wrong. The moment I entered my room, it became all emotional again. agian. Damn. I planned to study for my Chemistry and my Mathematics as I had upcoming tests about them next week. I guess i'll have to reschedule my studies again. sad. All that i've been doing was chatting with people and surfing the internet reading all sorts of articles. Sigh.
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Everything had just turned for the worse. Alot of my tests are going to be held next week, which will be the last week for lessons for my class. Because of this, I cannot go back to the philippines with my family to witness the funeral. how fucked up is that. bzzzzz....yeah yeah other people are worse off than me...
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525,600 minutes 525,000 moments so dear 525,600minutes how do you measure, measure a year? in daylights in sunsets in midnights in cups of coffee in inches in miles in laughter and strive in 525,600 minutes how do you measure a year in the life? how about love how about love how about love measure in love seasons of love 525,600 minutes 525,000 journeys to a place 525,600 minutes how do you measure the life of a women or a man? in truth that she learned or in times that he cryed in bridges he burned of the way that she died it's time to sing out thought the story never ends lets celerbrate remember a year in the life of friends remember the love remember the love remember the love measure measure your life in love seasons of love seasons of love measure your life measure you life in love Rent - Seasons of Love I was just singing this song to myself as I did my Effective Communication reflection papers(Essays). I had it on repeat and singing this song made me all emotional. No not Sad. I felt happy and a little sad. It was mixed. I can't really describe it well. Suddenly, tears just began flowing down again(bloody f..). and then...my DAD just had to open my door and I got shocked! I did not want to him to see me crying like this. Thank goodness he left the door slightly ajar and asked me whether I wanted dinner. Phew!
I declined obviously and locked my door after he left. It made me feel how fortunate I was on certain aspects of life. It also made me feel how inconsiderate I had been. Love is an emotion that is very hard to explain and also very hard to know when you feel it. It comes and goes just like that *snaps his finger*. You do not really BUILD love. You build relationships OUT OF love. If it comes, you use it and build it. If it doesn't..then..too bad. I know I know, some of you are like, WTF IS WRONG WITH MIKEY?! Nothing really, just the recent turn of events have really made me wonder alot of things that I never took notice. Love is also something that will teach you the true meaning of 'You never knew what you've lost, till it's gone'. Yes. No not just your boyfriend or girlfriend, even your cousins,grandparents as well as your parents. Being in Singpore longer than I have been in the Philippines left me far from contact with my relatives. My relatives..that took care of me when I was young, I did not really manage to see them again. They departed this world when I was in Singapore. On top of that, I did not have the chance to go back and see their bodies before they were buried. I'll write more I guess..when my mind is clearer. Right now I've got stuff that need my attention. BBL!
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I went to the kitchen 5-10mins back to refill my green tea - going to burn some oil tonight - and as I approached the kitchen, I smelled cigarette smoke. No one in my family smokes. My grandma did and so did my grandpa. I think some of you already know what i'm about to say... I think what I smelled was my grandma smoking cigarette in our kitchen. Perhaps, she came to visit us before she moves on. To say farewell. Her last goodbyes. Her final moments on this planet. I don't know, am I whacked? Has all these sudden turn of events made me go mad. I hope not. Well as far as I know, I'm feel sane. I had this experience too when my grandpa(her husband) passed away a couple of years back. I smelled this in the kitchen but did not really think much about it. Looking back, perhaps, he came for the same purpose. I miss them. Although, I know I will never...ever..see them again. ah..oh man..I feel weird.. meh Rest in peace grandma. Also to you great grandma. My great grandma passed away this year at the age of 99. She was just a couple of months short to be a centennial. My aunts and uncles said she used to ask about me, even after all these years I have not seen her. The last time I saw her, was when I was around 8 or 9 years old. Bleah. Ah, enough of this sad post. I'm going back to study my econs before tomorrows test.
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My grandma from my maternal side of the family has just passed away. She was a great grandma, very doting to everyone, especially us - the kids. I remember the days when I'd go to her shop and grab some bubble gums and my mom would scold saying that they were for sale. My grandma would laugh and give me more. Whenever I visited her from Baguio, she would prepare Bibinka(look it up on google if you don't know what it is). My favourite desert. She'd order the highest quality and the most expensive in the province just for me. It was great. It's things like this, I wish I was back in the Philippines. As much as there are alot of 'UNSAFE' stories about it, it is still my home country and where my roots come from. My grandma would always give me fireworks to play with during Christmas. I had rockets and explosives. I also had crackers. You had to rub the cracker against a rough surface and it'll make very loud cracking sounds. I will be going back for the funeral. During this time, I hope all of you will take care.
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Memories. I sang this song infront of the whole school when I was primary 6 in Bukit Batok Primary School(then)..it's the now Bukit Timah Primary School. I sang it with 3 of my other friends for talentine. Didn't win though..sadly.. I remember how it all went very clearly..the feelings..the faces of our teachers.. haha..seeing a whole crowd infront of us.. I dedicate this song..to you..and I hope you'll listen to it.
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I was told I need to get more rest and drink more water. Apparently, my dad told me I passed out while walking to the kitchen. I don't remember anything honestly. Nothing. The doctor of our family clinic was kind enough to come over to do a check on me. I'm weak..I feel exhausted..i think i'm spending too much time doing nothing..and blogging..i need to rant though.. rant...
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it's been..12hours since i woke up..and i've not touched a single piece of sheet. staring at my computer and ceiling all day in this fucked up room. this is so fucking gay. I wasn't prepared. I didn't see it coming. It got thrown into my face in just a few mins. fuck that. I don't have any cushion to absorb the blow. I'm taking it all in. It's been so long and i've psychoed myself plenty of times that life goes on. pfft. The wound still feels fresh and the exam breeze is much stronger now. life's not fair. yep that's what i'm thinking now. sue me. and i hope that lawsuit succeeds so I may be hung in deathrow. at least i didn't commit suicide. I fucking put in effort man. effort. fuck. What did you say? it's not about the effort? then what..what the fuck is it about.. being nonchalant in a r/s is good? is it? is it? seems like it.. how am i going to fucking move on in this screwed up state... arghhh...i'm really feeling suicidal now but i've got my parents..zzz.. i've got so many things to do..so many things..so many fucking things to fucking do.. but i don't know how to start.. how to psycho myself to do it.. should I have socialized more during that period? have many..many fuckload of female and male friends so I may just pick one out of the basket if this fails... should i? right now maybe I should have... but during that period..i didn't.. why.. no fucking idea.. no one digs snags now..snags are a thing of the past.. the in thing right now i guess are macho fucks who have no hurt nor shame. yeah.. mmhmm... yep.. i'm gonna rant and rant and rant... arghhh... i've talked to so many people..so many... i feel bad.. i've not talked to them for years and suddenly i open up to them and just pour out my worse shit ever. zzz. I feel so fucked up doing that but i had to. sorry guys/gals. really appreciate the advices and shit but it's not helping me at all. i'm weak..i'm weak..i should have prepared for this.. i should have..i should fucking have.. Is this what drive some men to have a spare tyre? I'm sure women out there have a spare tyre..something/someone/ or a whole group to fall back into before they leave a relationship...i don't know..do enlighten me... i'm just making a wild assumption. fucked up.
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Woke up, trying hard to make myself study.. but it's just not there. The drive..the mood... trying to find a way to psyche myself. Been staring at the ceiling all this awhile..maybe ranting here should help..for awhile...
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It has been a couple of hours...and it has..i hope..almost stopped flowing.. Have I reached a point of numbness..a numbness that cannot revert back...I really hope so... I wish..I want that numbness... It will help me...in future...for whatever happens at least i won't be hurt emotionally..at all..ever..till i disappear from the face of this earth. Many lessons learnt....many things regretted.. but rather pointless now.. so many things to do..so little time..so much time wasted..on this fucking piece of shit incident..fuck
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I cannot believe this actually happened. The pain hurt..so much.. I feel so numb now. So numb. The tears wouldn't stop..they just kept flowing..and flowing..and flowing.. Screaming into my pillow to release all the pressure deep down inside of me. It felt good, It felt great. My eyes are dry and I could barely keep them open. I don't know what has just happened, but, I guess all that build up in me just ran out of space. I've reached my emotion storage quota that I burst. Exploded. Ripped. The dam could no longer hold it in. So fucked up. And with school, things don't seem any better now. fuck. It's a months time to my finals and i'm still like this. Am I doomed to fail again on my 1st year of my new school... just like in Poly?...Is my 1st years of anything new always so fucked up...oh fuck.. I cannot believe that...when that person used to be with me...that person would rush home...asap..to Raid.. to play..to sleep..... But now...now that..i'm gone..now that..i have been chucked aside... I don't see anyone raiding..anyone..playing..anyone on msn.. i see no one.. why..wtf..wth..this is so fucked up... fuck..fuck you..fuck..fuck all..fuck...god..fuck...fucking hell..
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 My little brother took this while I was day dreaming at the window. I thought it looked nice and decided to share it with all of you.  A blurred picture of myself today. Hm...look at those chubby cheeks...  How my lab generally looks like. I wanted to snap the whole lab, but i was afraid of the attention I might draw. :D In class doing my computing practicals.. My beloved shoes.mmmm...shoes...I need a nice pair of running shoes. The new balance ones are killing my feet.  Today's weather. Seemed like it was gonna rain, so I didn't go for my jog. God damnit. More fats..  The bus stop I go to everyday to get to school. Oh, I watched Ratatouille today alone. Funny show..hahaha.. I loved it... Yeah, that's all for today. Nothing much, just random shots. I'll try to snap more interesting shots in future :D.  Litter bugs....
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A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do. One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, INGENIOUS came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!" All of them liked the idea and immediately MADNESS shouted: "I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek MADNESS, all the others agreed. MADNESS leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three...." As MADNESS counted the vices and virtues went hiding. TENDERNESS hung itself on the horn of the moon, TREASON hid in a pile of garbage. FONDNESS curled up between the clouds and PASSION went to the centre of the earth. LIE said that it would hide under a stone but hid at the bottom of the lake whilst AVARICE entered a sack that he ended up breaking. And MADNESS continued to count: "... seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..." By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except LOVE. For undecided as LOVE is, she could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide LOVE. MADNESS: "....ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven... " Just when MADNESS got to one hundred, LOVE jumped into a rose bush where she hid. And MADNESS turned around and shouted: "I'm coming!" As MADNESS turned around, LAZINESS was the first to be found, because LAZINESS had no energy to hide. Then he spotted TENDERNESS in the horn of the moon, LIE at the bottom of the lake and PASSION at the centre of the earth. One by one, MADNESS found them all - except LOVE. MADNESS was getting desperate, unable to find LOVE. Envious of LOVE, ENVY whispered to MADNESS: "You only need to find LOVE and LOVE is hiding in the rose bush." MADNESS] grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. MADNESS stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. LOVE appeared from the rose bush, covering her face with her hands. Between her fingers ran two trickles of blood from her eyes. MADNESS, so anxious to find LOVE, had stabbed out LOVE's eyes with a pitch fork. "What have I done!" MADNESS shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?" And LOVE answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide." And so it came about that from that day on, LOVE is blind and is always accompanied by MADNESS.
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I've been staring at this fucking screen for the whole day since i woke up. I had been trying to study my economics for my upcoming econs test. It consists of MCQs that's about 45mins long. I'm so fucking frustrated because I cannot seem to digest anything. All I do is stare and stare and read and read yet I am unable to make any sense out of it. All I see are letters joined together. I'm feeling really frustrated,irritated and desperate. I need to study so that I won't fail. I cannot afford to fail. So fucked. Wednesdays used to be my favorite day. It was a day when I have alot of free time. When we both had alot of free time. But now, the free time that I have now and should be enjoying is so meaningless. So pointless, I wish i didn't have any freetime. I might be eating my own words again in the future, but at this moment, yeah, that's what I'm wishing. I'm just probably going through one of those ugly mood swings, but I feel that it is affecting me so bad I am contemplating seeing a doctor. hah. I've asked around about what I'm currently feeling and they said it's just ur typical mood swing. I sincerely hope they are right. I was also told that seeing a doc for this is a big NoNo and a too drastic measure to be taken for now. My exams are just around the corner and I am desperate to get myself back to that normal Mikey before. The past few days have been really gloomy for me. The mood is just not there, I can hide it well from my classmates but when I get home, it just feels like shit. No - Worse than shit. My mind is like blank, my chest feels heavy - I hope it's due to the fats. I've been trying to sweat out my stress and sadness every other day. It helps.. temporarily, but after that, it all comes back again. zzz.... I thought such events wouldn't be so painful, wouldn't have such a great impact, wouldn't affect me so much. I thought I could handle it without a hich, like it's just another day, forget everything and act as if nothing happened, or such a chapter existed in 'Michael's Life'. I can finally understand that people who toys with other people's feelings must be really cold hearted - or even heartless - and have no EQ. Just IQ. Enough IQ to mindfuck you to do their bidding and throw you away once you have served your purpose. Sometimes I tend to try to be like them. Be cold hearted and sly. But my other self keeps telling me not to. It tells me that something good will come out of this. It tells me to stay positive. It tells me to stay strong and focus on my main priorities now. I'm really tired. I have not been able to get any quality sleep at all recently. I must try to strengthen my mental power. I must....
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I was tidying up my room and came across my Squash racket hung beside my cabinet. I took it down and looked at it. Ah.. brings back the memories of the nasty things I said to her. I bought it so that I could enjoy Squash - her fav sport - with her. But, I guess, finding a court and finding time was difficult for her. We only played once..at her aunts condo. It ended abruptly because the friggin ball split into 2 after I received it. fuck. I guess that's the first and last time i will play with her. sigh. It's so painful now. What i'm going through is a very painful lesson of what I have done. I guess everyone went through this phase too once in their life. ah........
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Alrighty, survived my 1st day of the week,monday. A very long day, 0830 to 1830! OMFG?! Had a very simple laboratory in the morning. Heat transfer. Geez. IMO, this has been the only experiment out of the 14 labs that I actually understood WTF was going on. After the experiment was over, my click and I went to for our physics lecture. To my surprise, it was a new lecturer. Oh yeah baby, no more drama queen..or King for his case. I was all set to listen to the lecturer and then I realised that he has not said anything for 10mins despite having the mouth piece close to his lips. Then i heard beats coming from the speakers above me. He was talking! holy shit! I couldn't hear anything though, all i heard was 'thumb......thumb......thumb'. Gah... bloody dick can't speak loudyly, and with that terrible english accent of his, it just made everything worse. I could see people walking out of the lecture hall, hahaha. I wanted to as well but there was no where else to go, so I stayed throughout the horrific lecture. I had my Econs tutorials right after. Headed towards the tutorial rooms, and then.. I saw her with her click. They were at the bench close to the elevator that I was going to take. I don't know if she saw me, but I tried to make eye contact with her just to say Hi. Sadly, I couldn't because she was blocked... oh well... After that, I was in a daze all the way until 1830. My concentration couldn't keep me steady in class. All I could do was reminisce the happy times we had. It was just very uplifting to think of such thoughts, however impossible it is to re-enact it now. I'll just let nature take its course i guess..and maybe..hopefully.. one day.. it might happen. haha... Anyways back to studying, i've got my Econs quiz next week. Oh man, so many chapters to read through again. fukin 20 MCQ in 45mins. ughh.. help...
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 I watched this musical again today after some studying. It was great. The songs they sang were all very inspiring. I really strongly encourage everyone out there who's feeling down and out to listen to their songs. They aren't love songs btw, but the lyrics are really touching and gives you motivation. The show rent is a musical that is set in the East Village and deals with a pack of young starving artists in the late 1980’s. They face disease, drug addiction, sexual freedom, love, and an unfortunate 4-letter-word: A.I.D.S. Here is an excerpt from one it's songs - Season of love "How do you measure the life of a woman or a man? In Truths That She Learned, Or In Times That He Cried, In Bridges He Burned, Or The Way That She Died." This film asks an insightful question and ends up overwhelmingly empty. Can you measure the life of a person in any of these proposed ways? Certainly. The truths that we learn are of eternal importance. Truth is the plumb line of life, setting the direction and providing the goal that gives life purpose and meaning. Without truth, there is no ability to measure the life of a man or a woman. The times that we cry and the bridges we burn are significant points in life that fall along that plumb line. Why do we cry? When and for whom do we cry? Which bridges do we burn and why? The line we use to plumb of our lives will dictate these significant events. :D
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The Fundamental Theorems of Calculus connects integration and differentiation and comes in two parts. His discovery started the mathematical developments that fueled the scientific revolution for the next 200 years and constitutes what is still regarded as the most important computational discovery in the history of the world. - Who was it? That's right folks - maths! It's what I was studying before I decided to blog about it. I realised that i'm lagging behind alot in my Mathematics. God damnit. I've got exactly 30days from the date of this post till my Mathematics exam. wOOt. I hope I my brain's information digestion can speed up a noch or I fear I may not make it before the test. If i don't make it.. i'm fucked. like.. fucked... u noe? fucked? yeah....
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Hey there. As you can see i've changed the skin and added something new - finetune. I know the skin is quite gay, but i kind of like it because it's simple,green and shows everything that you would want to read without having to go through links. I learnt about fine tune from my friend's blog, Cassey. Ty cassey. Anyways, I'll try to change the playlist from time to time so it doesn't get stale. Alright, that's all for today. Ciao!
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Mikeys note: this did not come from me You only live once. And, it doesn’t hurt to think of this, from time to time. The worst thing would be to look back on your life, wishing you could have been happier or done more. Don’t let that happen! Now is the time to take a good look at your life and make changes so that you have no regrets. We all know time flies. Days, weeks, months and years slip away. Don’t let them pass you by. Make the necessary changes that bring happy, joyful memories, so you can look back with no regrets. What do you most regret? Is there anything you regret?
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ENFJ when in love As an Extraverted Feeler, you absolutely love to communicate with your mate--verbally expressing feelings of affection and tenderness and discovering what your partner really values. You also tend to have a consuming desire to spend time with your soul mate; you can barely stand it when he or she is away. Although you probably have many friends, you want to include your mate in you social life as much as possible. The danger: Your 100 percent emotional investment in your loved one may leave you feeling overextended--lacking the energy to take care of your own needs because you are so busy taking care of your lover’s.
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I just came back from jogging around my neighbourhood. I took the path that we usually went when she came over to my area. It was to test how far have i progressed. As I approached the path, it gathered whatever remaining strength and courage I had and took the plunge. Memories came pouring into my mind. It was overwhelmed with those pleasant, precious yet painful thoughts. I felt like I was watching a video tape in fast forward. I just smiled, and jogged home.
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 Happy are those who get what they want. I got back my chemistry test results today. I only got 60%. One of the lowest in class. How nice. The maths quiz I had yesterday.. well, I didn't manage to do it. I just wrote down the formula to use and submitted the piece of sheet. No matter. I only have myself to blame. W H Y DA F U CK IS M Y U N I L I F E S T A R T I N G O U T T H I S W A Y
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I was so looking forward to going home today... to meet her.. to have dinner with her.. and then i realised, that we were no longer together. No longer possible to be intimate, No longer possible to love, No longer possible to enjoy each others company, No longer a couple. I felt gloomy immediately during the Econs lecture. My mood changed in the blink of an eye. I tried to hide it, but i could not. I was unable to resist shedding a tear. My eyes became watery. I blinked, and a tear streamed down from eyes to my lips. I tasted it - it was bitter, it felt horrible, depressing, suicidal. I told my friends I yawned. Class ended and all of us parted our separate ways. I walked alone towards the bus stop. So lonely, heart aching, eyes fighting hard not to cry. I feel so weak, so useless, so helpless, so 'sian'. The bus ride to the MRT seemed to take forever. Everytime i ride on the bus, i'm all alone in my sit. The special person is no longer there. I miss her dearly. I reached home and locked my door. Hid myself under the pillow for a good cry. It was long...It felt good... nothing better than a good cry and let it all out...I'm back on my computer, studying... I will do my best to get through this. I will stand tall. I will be stronger. I've learnt so much, the irony here is, I only begin to learn; when it's over. Utada Hikaru - First Love.
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Hey yo when this first started off it was just Linkin Park Then in the middle came Motion Man And at the end of it all it was Kutmasta Kut wit a remix One thing I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme when I was obsessed with time All I know, time was just slipping way And I watched it count down till the end of the day Watched it watch me and the words that I say The echo of the clock rhythm in my veins I know that I didn't look out below And I watched the time go right out the window Trying to grab hold, trying not to watch I wasted it all on the hands of the clock But in the end no matter what I pretend The journey is more important than the end or the start And what it meant to me will eventually be A memory of a time when I tried so hard I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter Yo one thing, one thing I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know, time to so-socialize like the host of the party All for shake and made eye contact Party control showing all that Northeast, southwest coast Stand out the window, no opportunity to mingle I tried to show her, if you could just sense a middle disorder I brought you back of the thing Like the imaginary man of your dreams Well, you would always seem to make it worth it A pig skin I never nerfed it you felt lovin, I never applied a room without bringing the plan by any means and means of leaving you teens, of all those teenage scenes, I tried so hard I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter Linkin park (remix) Mo Mo Mo Motion Man Linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kutmasta Kut Kutmasta Kurt Linkin park (remix) Mo Mo Motion Man Linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kurt One thing I don't know how It doesn't even matter when you look at it now Because when I designed this rhyme I was scared of it all Scared to fall, I har the start And what it meant to me will eventually be A memory of a time when I tried so hard I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter Yo one thing, one thing I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know, time to so-socialize like the host of the party All for shake and made eye contact Party control showing all that Northeast, southwest coast Stand out the window, no opportunity to mingle I tried to show her, if you could just sense a middle disorder I brought you back of the thing Like the imaginary man of your dreams Well, you would always seem to make it worth it A pig skin I never nerfed it you felt lovin, I never applied a room without bringing the plan by any means and means of leaving you teens, of all those teenage scenes, I tried so hard I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter Linkin park (remix) Mo Mo Mo Motion Man Linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kutmasta Kut Kutmasta Kurt Linkin park (remix) Mo Mo Motion Man Linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kurt One thing I don't know how It doesn't even matter when you look at it now Because when I designed this rhyme I was scared of it all Scared to fall, I hadn't even tried to crawl And I was forced to run, with you mocking me Stopping me, back stabbing me constantly Remembering all those times you fought with me Watch the clock now chop full of hypocrisy And now your mouth wishes it could inhale Every single little thing you said and make it expel Every single word you sputter just to get your piece, but it really doesn't matter to me Because from the start to the end no matter what I pretend The journey is more important than the end or the start And what it meant to me will eventually be A memory of the time when I tried so hard I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn’t even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn’t even matter In the end - funny how so many things make sense now
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...and i'm getting ready to get out of the house............................. for my test. I don't feel so confident nor do I have the mood for the test. It's physics. It's rather simple to understand,but I just don't have the mood to enter the exam hall. I know I sound very down and had promised earlier that I will cheer up and move on, but, it is just too difficult for me. My blog contains nothing but negative posts, I hope to improve this in due time. Perhaps, I'll get a new camera and add pictures of where I go to make things more interesting. arghh.. fucked up. ksajdsklajdsi0oauw0e8q902839108392013821jeiosajdslkadzxcasdljk
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You & Your Pisces 8/6/2007 12:48 pm Do ... ... learn to let tragic movies or dramatic pieces of music bring a tear to your eye. Your Pisces will appreciate your sensitivity -- and will kiss your tears away. ... get in touch with your compassion and inner love for every being in the universe. Your Pisces can help you to empathize with all the forces out there, and help you understand why they deserve your love. ... learn how to communicate a thousand expressions of love -- all without saying a word. Your Pisces will be able to read your soul by looking into your eyes. ... offer support to your Pisces; learn how to ground them without dragging them too far down to earth. Your Pisces will teach you how to notice shooting stars and pictures in the clouds. ... think of ways to show your Pisces that a true love story of the classic variety can exist between the two of you today. They will, in turn, show you how this love story can last forever. ... enjoy good art and fine wine -- your Pisces will love you for it. Don't ... ... rely on your Pisces to be the financially astute one in the relationship. A Pisces would often rather leave financial matters up to others; their mind is in a different place. ... reproach a Pisces too harshly for being a daydreamer instead of a doer. The Fish are known for being in tune with the spiritual, not the material. ... ever knock old-fashioned, hearts-and-flowers true love. Pisces believe that it exists, and are not going to be satisfied with a casual affair instead. ... put down your Pisces by accident; you may injure their feelings without even noticing. A Pisces might not yell or throw things when they get hurt, but they feel it very deeply all the same. ... treat your Pisces too casually; don't toy with them or let them see you play the field. A Pisces does not like this behavior, as it goes against their ideas about true love and spiritual connection. ... subjugate their artistic impulses -- this is a truly creative Sign, and you may be standing in the way of their happiness and a fine piece of art. -I did all the donts...
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Went to watch balls of fury.. The moment I stepped into the cinemas, I experienced flash backs. It hurt where it hurt the most. All those memories going to the Cinemas with her, are now just, memories. Tears were streaking down from my eyes, unclear to my friends because it was dark. I followed them to our respective sits. I sat there, hugging my backpack. It was cold, very different from the warm, soft skin of hers. It was so painful. I felt like the whole 2 hours was hell. I wanted to leave, but i did not want to alarm both my friends who were trying to cheer me up these past few weeks. Today was a sad day despite being able to complete my test without a hitch. After the movies, my friends wanted to eat, i didn't join them because I was just too tired and wanted to be alone. I bid them goodbye and made my way to the Taxi stand and took a cab home - The journey home via MRT might kill me. Inside the cab, thoughts were racing through my mind. As i thought more, i grew angrier yet very sad. I wondered why I could not be given that second chance. Sigh... just another sad day for me too. I know some of you gals and guys are going through this too, i feel your pain.
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Top five signs you're about to get dumped 1. Picking fights. No one is saying you have to get along 24/7. Constructive conflict can actually be good for your relationship. But if you find that your partner has become argumentative over petty issues like your clothes or choice of restaurant, that should serve as a warning sign that he/she may be looking for an excuse to bail. 2. Forgetting to call. Used to be that your phone would ring all day long with your sweetie wanting to make plans or calling just to say, "I love you." Now your significant other doesn't even call when he/she is running three hours late. It may seem obvious, but going from speed dial to a blocked number is a sure sign that your relationship may be nearing its expiration date. 3. Changing their stripes. A major change in appearance can be a sign that your partner is looking toward greener pastures. Whether they've chopped off their hair, lost 40 pounds or gone from a bold brunette to a sultry blonde, major cosmetic changes should be noted. Of course, there's nothing wrong with being a little vain, but if the change is accompanied by any of the other signs listed here, you may need to get ready to go solo. 4. Criticizing. If your sweetie isn't feeling you anymore, don't be surprised if he/she becomes less tolerant of everything, from how you brush your teeth to how you tie your shoes. Constant criticism is a telltale sign that your days as a twosome are numbered. 5. Losing sexual interest. A healthy sex life can make or break a relationship. If you find that your partner is becoming more sexually aloof, you need to get to the root of the issue. While it's natural to have less sex as you settle into a comfortable groove together, waiting weeks or months to have sexual contact is a sign that something is amiss. Now that you know the warning signs, don't panic. Just because your partner exhibits some of these behaviors, that doesn't necessarily mean the relationship is over. In fact, it's usually a combination of signs and not one isolated incident that foreshadows a breakup. If you're worried that your partner is itching to get out, the most important thing you can do is sit down and discuss your issues in an honest and open manner. If you take these signs as your cue to improve communication, your relationship may just have a fighting chance.
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So sick of the pain in my chest. So sick of yearning . So sick of regretting. So sick of wishing. So sick of writing depressing articles. So sick of ranting. I have decided, to put the goals I had set aside, 5 years ago, into motion. I have decided, enough is enough. I have decided that the only way I can go now, is forward. I have decided that I will not repeat the same mistakes. I have decided to change my lifestyle. I have decided to move on..... I will meet new people. I will make new friends. I will make new enemies. I will forge better bonds with the people around me. I will not look back. Stop procrastinating. Stop cursing. Stop living in my own world.
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How does one make his feelings for somebody fade or disappear? The pain is too much to handle, I feel like I'm going to break down any moment... Trying to piece my broken heart together after it was shattered into fragments awhile back.... But I do not have the proper glue to stick them together. I'm missing that glue.... that glue... a glue that's as unique as you...
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Are they always meant to end? Must first loves always fail? If so, how I wish she wasn't my first love... so many wishes..so selfish..so depressed
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Most people would drink lots of alcohol to drown their sorrows. Nope, not me. I drink coffee. Yes coffee. Why? 1. Alcohol is expensive 2. Gets you drunk 3. You might vomit it out in the end 4. Makes you more depressed My coffee intake per day has doubled just to keep me satisfied and somewhat cheery. But it's only temporary....
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Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply--and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses. Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly--they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world. Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap. Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population. -What is yours?
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Everyday, i wake up with tears in my eyes. I hope they were the tears from the night before, but i'm not sure. Crying myself to sleep seems to be the only way to sleep now, i want it to stop. I wish i could be like other guys, who can move on the next day after a break up. I wish i could be like them who do not feel anything after break ups. I know it's heartless but i think it's better than feeling like this. I know it's selfish but I'd rather survive. I'm human after all. I wish for so many things... I wish the number 23 did not exist... Many of my friends tell me to move on.. I have been trying to move on for my sake. I feel so shitty, is this what she had been feeling all these years without me realising?...Is this? I wouldn't know, and will never know anymore.. How could i have taken someone so dear to me for granted. How? It's quite pointless asking now, but still.. how? I guess i was too self-centered without realising it. I have very bad perception. I don't know why but tears would just start rolling down from my eyes out of the blue. It's so hard to conceal it from people. Best way i've found is to laugh and pretend that it's just tears of joy. 2 of my classmates have been very accommodating to the kind of shit group work i've been submitting, though i think i have to buck up soon before they run out of patience.. Time heals all wounds, Time changes people... what does the future hold for me? 2007, has been the worse year for me so far.. My leave in the army got burnt, couldn't study well, failed my driving test, submitted a blank sheet of paper during my test and someone very dear to me has left... I know they aren't much compared to what is happening around the world... Oh well... only thing i'm trying to do now i just encase my heart in ice. I feel that is the only way for someone as emotional as me to move on... fuck.
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