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Fucked up..really..really fucked up
Thursday, October 18, 2007 at 9:43 PM

I cannot believe this actually happened. The pain hurt..so much.. I feel so numb now. So numb. The tears wouldn't stop..they just kept flowing..and flowing..and flowing..
Screaming into my pillow to release all the pressure deep down inside of me. It felt good, It felt great. My eyes are dry and I could barely keep them open.

I don't know what has just happened, but, I guess all that build up in me just ran out of space. I've reached my emotion storage quota that I burst. Exploded. Ripped. The dam could no longer hold it in. So fucked up. And with school, things don't seem any better now. fuck. It's a months time to my finals and i'm still like this. Am I doomed to fail again on my 1st year of my new school... just like in Poly?...Is my 1st years of anything new always so fucked up...oh fuck..

I cannot believe that...when that person used to be with me...that person would rush home...asap..to Raid.. to play..to sleep.....
But now...now that..i'm gone..now that..i have been chucked aside... I don't see anyone raiding..anyone..playing..anyone on msn.. i see no one.. why..wtf..wth..this is so fucked up...
fuck..fuck you..fuck..fuck all..fuck...god..fuck...fucking hell..

I'll play for you.