It’s about 1am right now and I just had this urge to just blog something. Probably because I’m feeling really shitty. ROFL

I just got back from another mugging session in school with a couple of friends. The exams are exactly 12days from now and I’m really feeling the stress weighing down on me. It’s a terrible sensation. It’s always like this when nearing the exam period. Can’t seem to relax, sit still, clear the mind or even sleep peacefully. Despite all this, I won’t be having a break during the annual break from May to August because I’ve got to do a project for that period. G_G

Well, in addition to my post on Feb 24, I think after much trying(I think I did) I still cannot share stuff about myself or pour out my problems to people easily. I think that most of the time, what people perceive of me is just a façade that I portray…perhaps habitually. I know it’s screwed and that I’m probably close to liar if that’s the case. OH NO. So…how? I’m like…at this age..and still pondering about these things. Talk about growing wiser as you get older. I think the wiser here means you have more things to think about but no answers to those thoughts. -_- _|_
I hate evenings sometimes. It’s when my brain activity increases many folds compared to day time. But probably evening during the day I still think a lot. Well, I think I THINK a lot….relatively......I’ll probably try to verify this… I wonder what other people think of… OMG SEE, I’m THINKING!..

Hm… probably no harm typing this in the Blog.

Recently, like…recently recently.. I’ve been reminiscing about her very often. I don’t exactly know why this is happening all of sudden... Sometimes while I’m doing my revision, my mind wanders off and remembers the past happy moments. It does bring a smile along with a heartache… cmon..say.. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww… and even when I dream..it’s about.. the past. Every time I wake up from the dream, everything feels VERY VERY real. I thought I’ve totally gotten over everything, accepted the facts and well..tried to erase everything from memory. I managed to…until recently. Is this a sign of loneliness?.... -.-“

Well, I think I’m enjoying my life as it is…BUT filling up that missing half would be great LOL. My 1s state only has me. Need another one to make it full………….I hear some of you thinking… NERD. If you don’t get it..i guess it’s a good sign….
Hm.. Well I’ve got more stuff on my mind that..i think..is JUICY…but… ahha..i think I’ll leave those just for myself….

Perhaps…………………..one of these days..i will try to type it down………..perhaps…… =D

Currently Playing: Joe Thomas – Heart Behind my Eyes.